Just adding my .02 cause I haven't in a looooooooooong time.

Tomorrow marks the 1 month anniversary since I haven't been working. Those biatches tried to fire me but I outsmarted them and quit before they could! Muahahahaha.

However, I've gotten SO many calls from people that want me. I'm looking into going into the insurance business. Not really a fave but it'll do for now. There's a big possibility that I'll be relocating by the first of the year. I can't wait!!! ::crosses fingers:: I hope it works out. But I don't know where I'll be relocating to, that's the only thing that sucks.

*sigh* oh wells.


Okay, I'm off. I felt the need to share my happiness with EVERYONE!!!

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)


-ee cummings

Never say I love you, if it isn't really there


Never talk about feelings, if you really don't care


Never hold my hand, if you're gonna break my heart


Never say you are gonna, if you don't plan to start


Never look into my eyes and all you do is lie


Never say hello if you really mean goodbye


If you really mean forever, Then please say you'll try ..


Never say forever.. Because forever makes me cry...

-And All That Could Have Been-
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I just found this in a friends' journal. It's exactly what I've always wanted to say.


The thing that frustrates me about you....is you dont want me....you dont want me back and i dont know how to make you want me. I guess you can't make someone do that sort of thing. But I wish i could. I wish you were feeling the same ache I am, the same pit in my stomach, the way I have to hold back the tears and emotions and pretend that all is well and I'm satisfied being your friend. I want to hear you tell me you love me one last time, just so I know i didn't imagine it. I want to hold your hand one last time, so I can memorize the touch of you. I want to kiss you one last time, so I will never forget the softness of your lips on mine and the passion of our kisses. But I don't think i'll ever have one last time...i dont even know if i'll ever see you again.
That fact alone scares me to death.
Pretend I didnt say this...
Pretend you didnt read it...
I want you back




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I'm retiring from writing in my LJ, for now anyways, till I get some stuff resolved. I wish I could write about it...but I'm not going to. I shall make posts, but nothing about what I'm doing or where I might be going. Check TR/TF if you wanna figure out how I'm doing





my <3 is broken, yet again...

*sigh*


Florida was fun. Not long enough. I shoulda driven south instead of north. And YEEEEES Evan, you were right. It's 500 miles down there and 500 miles back. I take back what I said earlier :-p

On a better note...I'm planning on putting my 2 weeks notice in for my job. Waaaaaaaay to much drama for me. And it's all the older, "supposed to be mature" managers that are making my life a living hell. Ha! I told Bekki and Carra that I'm gonna go work with guys. Cause that's the only way, at least for now, that I won't have drama. Hence why i always say...i wanna be a guy.


I have lots more to write but I don't feel like it. And besides, SOME people still read this, hahaha. I don't know why ya do...E-man ;-) I end up tellin' you everrrrrything anyways. and in the famous words of you..."Joo do schwhatever joo wants"

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Oh, and everyone pray for Danny. He went down yesterday on Chip's 'Screamin' Eagle Electra Glide'. A white van went across 2 lanes of traffic (on Hwy 9 and Old Milton Pkwy) and creamed Danny, then proceeded to run over him. He's got 4 broken ribs, a broken leg, broken pelvis, ruptured spleen and severed kidney. Not to mention the damaged that was done to his face.

When the guy hit Danny, he ran over his head. So now they're having to drill a hole into the side of his head to drain the blood. He had a helmet on, novelty, not DOT, but fancy this...there wasn't ONE scratch on his helmet. Weird. But anyways, back to what i was saying...his skull has shifted upwards and they've gotta do all this extensive and delicate surgery. He's still in ICU. Kelly and I are gonna go see him today. If they let us in...

wow, i haven't written in this thing in FOREVEEER. oh well. anyways. i'm sooo dunzo with work. it's becoming more of a chore than something fun. i'm just over the drama. that's why i wanna move away from here and start over.

even more of a reason to move to tampa, right Kyle??? hahahahahaha


so this week has been pretty eventful. my grandpa passed away, work sucks, Carra is leaving me for 2 long weeks, and i'm going to florida for the weekend.

i'm so not looking forward to the drive down there, but i've got a pretty rad trip planner, so i should be fully entertained.


and for the record...

I'M NOT A TEASE!!!!!




hahahahaha :)

The house I bought was more of a rash decision that a well thought out one. For any of y'all who know, I sold it an put the rest in a fund for furthering my education/career. prolly gonna use it for graduate school...yes, i have decided to finish the rest and not stop. makes more sense, eh? Anyways, gotta go write a paper for my philosophy class.

Oh and one last thing...









I became a proud mommy this past weekend...


I got myself a pretty little kitty. I love him!!!!

So, I got a new job. It's not the best job in the world but I'm bringing in an extra $500 a night...and keep in mind that this is not a hussy job. It's waitressing somewhere. And no...not where you think.


I'm done with this. It's too much for me to handle.






farewell...


oh and I got my internship with the hospital...I'll be moving after the new year. I hope not though...gonna do everything i can to stay here.

It's officially been a week.


*sigh*


The bike wreck helped me, but it didn't help anything else. I fucking hate my life sometimes. At least my sessions are going well. I've been told I'm making improvement.


That's good news I guess. I found out that I've been gettin 5k/per month from my grandma that passed a few years ago...I've supposedly been getting it since I was 20.


I can't cash it in til I'm 25. Fucker damn. I'm still looking for property anyways. I'm probably moving back home to the west coast.


Enough ranting...I've gotta finish laundry.

As the sun sets it falls upon the pieces of your past,


Reflecting you in all the shades of red and yellow.


Bringing life to all those that linger in your light.


Watch with your blurred perception due to misty eyes,


Although the radiant sunlight has long since vanished,


This is no time of worry, precious, we are all still here.


With these white pristine feathers scattered about


Our gazes are now drawn to the brilliant, starlit sky.


And although far from us, you are still visible.


Beautiful as you are, and as you will forever be.


Like snow covered hills in a northern landscape


You will rise and fall - startling yet awe inspiring.


Althought the skies will be rough and chaotic,


You will overcome any storms that come your way.


And to think, your journey has just begun...







Our paths diverge but I will see you in the end,


Goodbye, my sweetest and dearest friend.

I found these quotes in my phone and wanted to delete all of them but not without posting so everyone else could read them. I'll admit, some of them aren't mine. I would put the owners name after it, that is, if I knew it. Nevertheless, here they are...



"With this last breath I breath life into our creation of love and beauty, I pray this time it'll last forever. Know that I will always love you, dear, always"


...


"When you fall in love with someone, its like they take hold of a piece of your heart...and when you're not with that person anymore, that part of your heart is taken with them and you know that you'll never have another chance because its over..."


...


"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,
But by the number of moments that take our breath away....."


...


"The too few years were well worn on his face and his hair once short and kept was now dreaded from many of harsh wind and sea. His eyes had seen many more years than he had been on this earth, but once he smiled she knew it could be none other. It was the same half smile, endearing and warm, that she loved."


...


"Love is just an exchange of corporate documents"


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"Without the shedding of blood, there is no forgiveness"